I am dead in spirit. I know a bit on how it feels like being nowhere. I know now what a man of sin without God goes through each day. It feels like you are living for nothing. It feels like there isn’t anything more sad/bad that can happen. You look forward to a day with nothing in your mind. It feels like you are lost on a way to something. Your words will no more be words of comfort, joy and happiness rather it would be words of discouragement, sorrow and pain. You wake up each morning knowing you are going to sin or fail in life. You feel this dry pain that you cannot express. No matter, how amazing things take place around you or how wonderful the things you do in your life are, there is something lacking in your life. It’s a lack that subdues the excitement and joy of life, breaks the intimate relationships, and feels the pain and irritation raging from very small things.

You sit in your room thinking something that will help pass the comfort, refresh and revive your heart, soul and body. You wait desperately for something “out of the blue” to take place. You lie in wait for it; you are willing to pay anything except your life for such experience. You heart longs for something you have experienced at times before. It’s something that feels so gentle and refreshing, the presence of precious Holy Spirit. You terrible feel the pain and agony of his missing presence in you and in your life.

You have asked for forgiveness so many times that you even forget if you have been forgiven for something that you did so recently and so repeatedly. You resist asking for forgiveness another time vexed of the repeated wrong doings each and every time. You want to give up your old habits and old way of living but you cannot do it. You can’t find a way. You feel that it is next to impossible. You feel like you are holding on to an end of a chain that keeps expanding just when you are about to leave it and give up. You feel there is no purpose in life and your destiny seems very vague from your viewpoint.

You are angry, sad, disappointed, discouraged, lonely, sorrowful, painful, burdened, crushed in spirit, frustrated, disturbed at something, which you have no idea of. It is something you’d wish you knew. You also know very well that you cant. You have dreams that are unfulfilled, ambitions that seem too far to get to, goals that you feel you will never reach. You want to cry out but you cannot get the tears rolling off your eyes. You want to pray but you feel like talking to yourself. The bond that you once had seems to get thinner and thinner as time progresses. It feels like it is better to die and end this strong once and for all that to live and suffer this pain. It’s a pain that gets to the tips of your nerves but doesn’t slay you.

Its like standing on top of a tall building waiting for someone to push you. It feels like there is nothing in life that can satisfy you. You feel like you are in middle of nowhere. You are about to give up and know that there is no hope, no light, no peace, no joy, no saviour, no God. But just when you are about to say “I GIVE UP!” or reach out and say “Lord if you are out there, please help me!”, you feel the floods of tears rushing through your eyes. The dry crushed spirit in you seems to find itself in wetness of revived spirit. The crushed bones in your body seems like it has risen from a fallen ground. It feels like rivers of mighty water flowing out of your belly. Your words became numerous and there is shortage of words to express the depth of your Joy within you. Then from deep inside your heart, you hear a small still voice, which stands firm on its foundations saying “I am your Saviour, I am your Hope, I am your salvation, I am peace, I am Joy, I am light, I am the way, I am the truth, I am the life and I am everything you will ever need my Son/Daughter.”

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” – Matthew 11:28 (NIV)

God wants to see you there!

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O Lord my God, You have made Your servant king instead of my father David, but I am a little child; I do not know how to go out or come in. —1 Kings 3:7

As a young man, Jimmy Carter was a junior officer in the US Navy. He was deeply impacted by Admiral Hyman Rickover, the mastermind of the US nuclear submarine fleet.

Shortly after Carter’s inauguration as President, he invited Rickover to the White House for lunch, where the admiral presented Carter with a plaque that read, “O, God, Thy sea is so great, and my boat is so small.” That prayer is a useful perspective on the size and complexity of life and our inability to manage it on our own.

Solomon too knew that life could be overwhelming. When he succeeded his father, David, as king of Israel, he confessed his weakness to God, saying, “O Lord my God, You have made Your servant king instead of my father David, but I am a little child; I do not know how to go out or come in” (1 Kings 3:7). As a result, he asked for the wisdom to lead in a way that would please God and help others (v.9).

Is life feeling too big for you? There may not be easy answers to the challenges you are facing, but God promises that, if you ask for wisdom, He will grant it (James 1:5). You don’t have to face the overwhelming challenges of life alone. —Bill Crowder

Each day we learn from yesterday
Of God’s great love and care;
And every burden we must face
He’ll surely help us bear. —D. De Haan

Recognizing our own smallness can cause us to embrace God’s greatness.

Copyright © 2009, RBC Ministries, Grand Rapids, MI 49555 USA

Daily Devotional from Love worth Finding Ministries

BIBLE MEDITATION:
John 16:33 - “In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.”

DEVOTIONAL THOUGHT:
The will of God will never take you where the grace of God cannot keep you. His power is ever-present in your life as His child. If I could have been there in the days of His flesh, I would have wanted to see Him walk across the sea and calm the waves. I can just see that kingly form with the wind in His hair, putting His footsteps on the sea, His garments billowing back. Smiling at the storm. When the disciples saw Him walking on the water what was their biggest problem? The water. In essence Jesus was saying, “What looks like is going to be over your head is already under My feet.”

ACTION POINT:
What are some problems that are drowning you in fear, in discouragement, in sadness today? Give them to Jesus. Remember what is over your head is under His feet.

Over our Heads but under his Feet!

From the “WORD FOR THE WEEK”  24 October 2009
Christian Fellowship Church, Bangalore, India

God, in His sovereignty, has given a particular ministry to each and
every member in the body of Christ (1 Cor. 12:7,8). We could say that
God has drawn a circle around each person. In some cases the circle is
very large and in some cases it is very small (Matt. 25:15). Within
your own circle, you can find God (Acts 17:26,27). Outside your
circle, you can only destroy yourself, by being a busybody in other
people’s matters. Peter says that instead of suffering as a busybody
in other people’s matters, we should judge ourselves and suffer in our
own flesh (1 Pet. 4:15,17,1). For example: How another brother brings
up his children or spends his money, is really none of our business.
That is outside our circle. God has given us no authority in another’s
circle. Therefore we should take heed only to ourselves (1 Tim. 4:16).

When we were in the world, we could say that we had made a very large
circle for ourselves that involved having opinions about many people
and many matters. But now we must be careful to stay within the circle
that God has drawn around us as individuals.

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